During
my formative years in Seville, I had an Andalusian Gypsy nanny by the
name of Ahalita. Unable to bear children of her own, Ahalita poured all
of her maternal affection upon me. She was a flamenco
dancer and no sooner was my mother gone for her day’s outing, than
Ahalita would place a flamenco record upon the turn table. I
remember waking up from my afternoon naps to see Ahalita hovering
over my crib, holding my chubby little wrist and twisting
my hand around and around, training me towards the flamenco. To this
day, I still twirl my wrists upon awakening. From
her own coin, Ahalita fitted me out in flamenco dresses and extravagant
bracelets. On our morning walks through the park, she presented me
to all as though I was her own. My mother felt her intense feelings
for me bordered upon obsession, and as Ahalita's connection with
me deepened, so too did my mother's sense of unease. The time had
come to let her go.
Ahalita did not take kindly to being fired, but
that is a story for another time. I feel the residue
of Ahalita’s spirit is somehow linked with my own.
I may not have Gypsy
blood flowing through my veins, but I have something of Ahalita, that
is a certainty. There is an old Spanish saying: More grows in the garden than the planter has sown!